What might I be faking?
It is nothing scandalous.
No, nothing of the sort.
Want to know what I am faking?
I am faking being busy so that no one will talk to me. I am trying to buy 5 minutes of quiet.
So far, these past 30 seconds have been a complete failure.
Do your kids talk to you non-stop? Mine do. And I love their chatter. But at this time of day, which is now 4:39 p.m., I have used up all of my listening skills, my patience, and my words. I actually enjoy sitting here (I am getting a brief reprieve) and not feeling my tongue moving in my mouth. That is weird, isn't it? But true, oh so true.
I just don't have any more creative ideas, empathic responses, or attentive listening left in me. I am done. Finished.
I just had to referee an argument. Jack wants to play with Amélie's Barbies. Amélie doesn't want him to. He technically isn't playing with her Barbies. He is actually playing with his Spiderman in her Barbie house. Same difference. "He's going to make a MESS of my room!!!!! He RUINS things! He LOSES things! This is HORRIBLE!!!" Insert appropriately dramatic hand gestures and vocal inflections.
I am done with drama for the day.
Actually, I have more to say than to whine and complain. :) I really do.
It is now September 20th, and I never announced what my September project would be in my Year of Mindfulness. I didn't announce it because it quickly became an epic FAIL and I decided to hold off a month. This month's mindfulness project was supposed to be mindful eating.
I am HORRIBLE at eating mindfully.
I eat too fast, b/c I never know when I am going to be interrupted or called up on to intervene in a catastrophe of epic proportions.
I often have no clue what I am eating, because sometimes I commit the cardinal rule of eating at the table and reading and only pretending to listen to the conversation floating around me or the food I am inserting into my mouth.
I often eat when I am stressed, because eating spoonfuls of peanut butter, tablespoonfuls of Nutella, or chunks of sharp cheddar cheese is a quicker fix than closing my eyes and taking deep breaths.
I often eat when I am tired, because I think it is going to give me energy, and while eating for energy is true on a certain level, eating more will not compensate for the lack of energy I feel from lack of sleep.
And sometimes, I don't pay attention to what I am eating because I am living in my own little world in my own little head, and what is going on in the "real" world, including the motion of fork to mouth, is automatic rather than intentional.
So, October will be my month of Mindful Eating. If you would like to join me on my quest, both for encouragement and to stay accountable, please let me know! The more the merrier.
I'm just thinking that it's a good thing Halloween is at the END of the month and not the beginning. :)
I think I got about two minutes of quiet in there. That's a start.